i forgot i had profile view history turned back on and checked his reposts at 2am. he definitely saw my name. i feel physically sick from the embarrassment but my fingers literally open the app again without thinking. why do i keep doing this when it just humiliates me?

You keep doing it because your brain is in withdrawal, not because you lack self-respect. When a relationship suddenly ends, checking their digital footprint gives your nervous system a tiny, chaotic hit of connection. You're looking for answers in reposts that are usually just passive-aggressive noise anyway. First, forgive yourself for the view. People check their exes. It's clumsy, it's awkward, but it only proves you're a human who is hurting, not an obsessed stalker. He saw your name for two seconds; you don't need to turn that into a week-long trial in your head. To break the loop tonight, remove the friction points. Turn profile views off permanently in your settings, and block his account for just 72 hours. You don't have to announce it or make it permanent—you just need a physical wall for your thumbs to hit while your brain resets from the urge. Every time you catch yourself reaching for his page and put the phone down instead, you win back a little piece of your peace.