I literally had to scream 'omg goals!!' on camera while watching my soul evaporate. We’re sharing a villa in Tuscany, and the guy I’ve been secretly obsessed with for an entire year just hard-launched his thing with our friend on TikTok right at dinner. Now I’m stuck playing supportive hype-woman for four more days when I’d rather throw my Aperol Spritz off the balcony.

First off: give yourself an Oscar for that performance, because acting thrilled while your chest caves in deserves at least a nomination. It stings like hell, especially trapped under the Tuscan sun where you can’t even dramatically sulk without someone asking if you want more pasta. But here’s the blunt truth: secret pining always carries this exact tax. You didn't lose him to her—you lost a private script you were writing in your head while he was casually reading a completely different book. That doesn’t make the rejection hurt less, but it does mean you can stop feeling humiliated. You also don't owe anyone a 24/7 cheerleading routine. Next time the cameras come out or they start doing cringe couple banter, don’t fake enthusiasm. Just hit them with a calm: "Cute, guys. I’m grabbing my book and heading to the pool." Drop the fake smile, take solo walks into town, and stop being an extra in their vacation montage. Italy has great wine, ancient ruins, and gorgeous strangers—go look at literally any of them instead of his feed.